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[DATE:10.21.04] [TIME: 9:40 PM]
[MOOD: Tired]
[MUSIC: Raider Cheers =D]
Yay we beat River Hill!!!!!! 2 to 1!!!!! And i had liek...6 serves and got all of them in and at least one of them was an Ace!!!!! IM soooo happy!!!! =]
And i saw Brenden today and i talked to him for the first time since last year and guess what he said to me:
insults
lol im soooo not surprised
hes a butt =]
and i helped out a little with the hall decorations
FRESHMEN WILL WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
or at least i hope so =] freshies rox
homecoming saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I bought a ticket =) With my own mooony. It makes me happy =] I feel more adultish now lollz
And guess what....Muffin thinks im cool ^^
Or at least my friend said so
it makes me happy =] cuz hes always makin fun of me and i kno hes joking but liek...i always thot he was just nice cuz dats da way he is
he rox my sox
hes an awesomely awesome friend =) me gonna c him tomorro
and now im gonna go sleepy cuz this morning i overslepy ><
baibai luv youz

[DATE:10.18.04] [TIME: 8:49 PM]
[MOOD: ok]
[MUSIC: none]
We lost our volleyball game against wilde lake today 2 to 0 but i served liek 10 times and got every serve in and had about 5 aces
i rocked =]
and the day was ok, too
i found out i didnt fail my science test
i got a 76% =]
yay
ima go now baibai

[DATE:10.17.04] [TIME: 8:53 PM]
[MOOD: pissed]
[MUSIC: none]
is today national piss-off oana day?
i think my parents have pissed me off at least 10 times today....but i wont say what happened cuz im a bitch n im too lazy
Back to yesterday:
We went back to the stadium to watch the last four bands and it was freezing to hell and me n sat alone next to each other and i liek...snuggled into his arm to try n b warm and i stayed liek dat for a while and then i was shivering like shit and he put his arm around me and i was a little warmer and i was SOOOOOOO happy n i kept looking up at him and in my mind im liek, "god im never gonna forget this day"
and then we had to stand up for the Westminster or w/e performance and i was soooooo cold and he put his arm around me again and pulled me in close and i put my arms around him and i started crying cuz god, all my life id wanted to be so close to him and it finally happened and i was just liek...god thank you so much i'm so sorry that ive ever doubted you and if i die now i won't hold anything against you because i'll die happy
n then for the awards we had to wait about 30 mins and michelle came with a blanky and me her n dj shared it and then she left and during the awards me n dj shared the blanky ^^
and then on day way home i tried sleeping on his shoulder some more and then we tried liek...getting comfy positions so we could both sleep but it didnt work n then we switched sides of the seat and he leaned back against the window and i put my head on his chest and i started crying again cuz i was so damn happy and then i fell asleep for liek 10 mins and then we got to the school and he woke me up
then i came home, arguing with my dad
what a nice way to end my day =/
i wish dj liekd me....
he never will tho...never has =( it makes me really sad
but oh wellies
i gtg now cuz my dads being a butt
bye luv u

[DATE:10.17.04] [TIME: 12:51 PM]
[MOOD: SOSOSOSOSOSOSO HAPPY]
[MUSIC: Three Days Grace- Dunno]
OMG yesterday was one of the best days ive had in quite a while
It started out normal...got to school at 7:50 for band, had to go potty, came in the bandroom at 8:02 and fuzz was giving a speech and was angry that i was late
W/e im not even gonna get into that
Rehearsal was boring as shiznit
Before th busses came i hung out with Arnold and Chris and sometimes DJ and i asked DJ if hed sit with me on the bus and he said he didnt kno
And when the busses came he sat with me on the bus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I could barely breathe on the way to teh mall cuz i was so happy and i kept looking at him the whole time >< his eyes r perty =]
I also ate lunch wit him at da mall =]
And guess who i saw at the mall.....
Zack
He held his arm out for a hug and i just kinda leaned into him n he says i give bad hugs lol =P my hugs actually rock thankuverymuch ^^
When was it comeome complimented me on my hugs? Two days ago! therefore my hugs kick butt ^^ lol i dont think i told u my hug story
It was on wednesday i think and i was outside with Josh and he randomly wanted a hug and i hugged him and hes liek, "this is one of the best hugs ive gotten...she actually gives STRONG hugs, not weak, puny ones." or somethingliek that
Heehee my hugs r awesum =]
But anyway
I also saw britt at the mall and we had 13 minutes until i had to go bak to the bus and we ran all the way to Aero where we chose shirts for twin day and i left her to buy them and ran bak to the bus where i sat with Dj again and when we got to Westmister we were early so we had about 1 1/2 hours to spend and arnold got out his portable DVD player and we watched We Were Soldiers and then we did our show and we froze our asses off cuz it was sooo cold out and then we came bak to the bus, changed, and went bak up to watch the other bands but after one band we went bak to da busses and i asked Dj if i could rest my hea don his shoulder and try to sleep n he said yes so i did but i couldnt fall asleep cuz he kept moving around lol but dats ok i was happy enough just being near him ^^
And now i gtg but ill write the rest lata
The best is yet to come =]
yay
baibai i luvs youz

[DATE:10.15.04] [TIME: 9:26 PM]
[MOOD: ok]
[MUSIC: None]
Yesterday was a so-so day
It started out well cuz i got to talk to shoelace and we kinda sorta flirted i guess =]
But then someone told me some stuff about him that kinda changed the way i saw him and the whole time during volleyball i thought about him and if what i heard was true or not and i also thought about some other things that have happened to me hat kinda relate to what he did in a not-so-relateable way..........jsut dont ask
I was pretty much pissed/depressed during the whole practice
Everyone noticed it, too >/
I hate it when ppl notice im pissed......theyre all liek, "ru ok? whats wrong" LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE
Then i went otuside and hung out with my skater friends and i tried to do an ollie again lol but im retarded n i cant do 1
N then i went to the talent show and i talked to my friends n Brad n i told Brad he was cute and he looked at me weird and then he wouldnt talkk to me as much =/ oh well too bad lol i just told him the truth...i dont hold things bak
Yeah so we chilled around and then brit came n i went into da potty with her to try to put on my liquid eyeliner but it got all over my eye and the whole bottom part of my eye was liek....black....n i had to take it off and put on my regular pencil liner
THen i saw Andrew who i havent seen since last year since he goes to Hammond and i was soo happy and i hugged him n stuffers and i hugged all my other friends that came and i asked Dj is hed give me a hug and but he said no =(
Btw this whole time im liek...super hyper and im jumping around the whole auditorium running/skipping from place to place
I swear i think that juice Elijah gave me while i was hanging out with him had speed in it or something @.@
BUt neway, i made new friends and hung out with old ones and blahblah i watched ppl perform and then about 1 person before me i got all nervous and almost started crying and i was so scared that i was gonna mess up n everyone was gonna c me and dj was there with britt and dj gave me a couple of hugs and they made me feel so much better
hes so warm and comfy =] i wanna hug him more
Then i went onstage, sung liek crap (in my opinion), and my hands were shaking the whole time. At least my foot wasnt spazzing out like it did last time ><
Once the lights were turned off and i got offstage i started crying like shit and me n britt went into the drama room andi cried on her chest lol she was holding me and wouldnt let me go until i said that i did good cuz i felt so bad that i sung awful and stuff and i dunno i guess all the stress ive had the past few days kinda piled up n i just burst. N then after about 5 minutes i was liek, "OK let me go i cant breathe! i did good i did good!" and then shes liek, "do you hate DJ?" (cuz he was talking during my performance) and im liek, "no!" and shes liek, "Do you hate dj!!" and im liek, "NO!!!!" and shes liek, "Do you think ___ is hot?" and i laugh and im liek, "yeah" and shes liek, "is dj ugly" and im liek, "no" but then she finally let me go cuz i was suffocating ><
Then there was an intermission and i saw Zack and he said hi to me n told me i did well and we talked for a little bit and then he went with his friends and i went with Lea and we'll skip the shit with my dad wanting me to leave and me asking britt to drive me home n her gettin in trouble cuz o me >< i feel bad =(
BUt the rest of the talent show was spiffy =) I think i got more hugs from Dj, too ^^ im not sure tho....but his hugs r awesome they make me feel so happpy cuz hes soo cuddly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
neway
today i had marching band from 9 to 1 and then i got home and got on da net and watched TV and did math work for my mom >/ and played with Ana ^^ Then Fanfan came and made me come outside and i played football and kickball with my neiborhood posse and i got to hug Jared (remember, the cute 6th grader?) twice =D i wuv hugz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THen i came home and later my parents came home n we went to the mall and i bought a new shirt, new pajamas which im wearing to school monday cuz i have nothing better to wear for costume day (theyre black with hot pink flames and on the tank top theres a cute little monkey with hot pink devil horns =]) and i also went to Clairs and got a cool neclace, earrings, and bracelet for my homecoming dress
But of course, my first choice for earrings and necklace wasn't approved of by my dad >/ asshole
I hate my family
Ive told them that a couple of times, too
And everything would be so much better if someone taped my dads mouth shut so he couldnt talk nemore
But too bad thatll never happen =/
And now im gonna go
Im gonna c DJ tomorrow =]
IM happy...mayb ill get a hug
Or maybe not
=/
Bai
Luv u

[DATE:10.13.04] [TIME: 9:23 PM]
[MOOD: Pissed]
[MUSIC: Anything For You-Evanescence]
Im so pissed
My dad is an asshole and wouldnt let me stay for 5 minutes to watch Plan B practice for the talent show
im friends with the drummer now =] hes really nice
And cute, too lol ^^
Shoelace is cuter tho =]
But neway
Rit now im making the background music for my song for tomorrow and during the rehearsal i really messed up >< damn
I need to practice that song for liek...1 hour today to b ready
Ugh
Im in a huge need of a hug right now cuz i know preatty soon ima have a nervous breakdown
Im tired of getting home so fucking late
Oh well
When my breakdown DOES come, beware, someone's gonna get hurt...cuz im shutting away a LOT of anger
GRR
Ok bye
Luv u as long as ur not my dad

[DATE:10.12.04] [TIME: 9:54 PM]
[MOOD: Soooo tired]
[MUSIC: Anything For You-Evanescence]
Nothing really eventful happened...
Saw my senior friend whose name i still dont know in the halls and hes holds his arms out and i look at him all weird and hes liek, "What? ur not gonna give a black man a hug?" and i laugh n i hug him and he starts touching/tickling my stomach and i poke/tickle him back and tell him hes weird
U kno what amazes me? Three months ago i wouldave gone into liek...compelte depression if someone other than a BF touched me and now i hug everyone and everyone touches me and i dont even care
Yay im all better now =]
Than lata i had talent show rehearsal and i made new friends ^^ And after about 2 hours of waiting int he auditorium it was my turn to go up and i didnt mess up until the end of the song when i killed liek...a really high note
Now ima go cuz my stupid dad wont let me online nemore
bai B
[DATE:10.08.04] [TIME: 9:23 PM]
[MOOD: Tired/Slightly Angry]
[MUSIC: who cares]
God i was so pissed today cuz before volleyball started i was practicing my serves, trying to get 10 straight 1s in a row and it took me 30 fucking mins and i was almost crying in exasperation by the time i was done cuz i couldnt get the stupid serves in
Then practice started and we were doing passes and stuff and almost none of my passes went in and i almost cried again but then my mood got better cuz i stopped caring and after practice i 'hung around with colleen and courtney and michael and others for liek an hour and then court left n it was me n colleen and michael and we started throwing balls at each other and then i threw a ball at michael and it bounced off him and we both raced to get to the ball and it was against a wall and i pushed michael out of the was and he fell and i got the ball and i was like, "aww did da poor little football player get shoved over by a girl?" and he laughed =]
Then i got home cuz my jackass dad wouldnt let me stay over for the party for volleyball and i the "family" went out to dinner at Baja Fresh and we ate and then we went to WAl Mart where i bought the same exact watch that i lost about a week ago =D i also bought Garnier curl shaping gel and curlers and im trying to curl my hair right now. The gel's really sticky tho n its annoying ><
But yeah
Nothing much happened....my parents r having major issues with Band but we wont go into detail. lets just say its pissin me off
And im gonna go now bye
I luvs u

[DATE:10.07.04] [TIME: 8:17 PM]
[MOOD: PISSED]
[MUSIC: anything screamo would really help right now]
GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!! We lost against Centennial 2 to 1!!!!! IM SO PISSED
I missed 4 out of 6 fucking-ass serves!!! WTF!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow in practice im gonna work on those serves until my arms pop off. I need to fucking get them right. I cant afford to miss so many of them. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR GOD IM SO ANGRY
And i was serving and fanfans liek, "GO OANA!" while im serving and then the thirs of my serves i hit out and fanfans liek, "Cmon Coman you can do better!!" and he pissed me off so much god why doesnt he shut up!
And then after the game hes liek, "ur freshman team sucks" "jw sucks" "varsity sucks" SHUT THE FUCK UP NO ONE CARES
and he kept talking to me about how we lost and shit and i wanted to shove something in his fucking face to make him shut the hell up hes so annoying
And hes telling me how he used to play volleyball and how he used to be really good and im not even believing him becuz he says he used to b really good at everything
Example: When i got my skateboard he talked about how he used to skate and then he got on the board and could barely do anything and I was BETTER than him...he oculd barely go anywhere on the board jeez yeah fanfan u really used to skate *roll eyes*
They should invent a "roll eyes" smiley suc i hate writing actions down >/
But anyway
During the game i dived liek shit and got so many stupid floor burns on my sucking knees and now theyre all red and blotchy and they hurt =(
And we lost >/ GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna hit something or just go somewhere whrer i can scream
Btw ive been working on my screamo skills and i can scream notes now. Isnt that awesome? =D
Yeah
WE lost the game =/
UGH!!!!!!!!! Im killing my keyboard with my angry typing.
I seriously need some anger management or im gonna kill someone someday
I don remember who it was bur during the game someone said to be, "God Oana you're so happy and calm" (while we were losing)
Yeah...im happy and calm DURING the game, but after, my emotions get all over the place
I almost fucking cried i was so pissed
And it was the stupid ref's fault that we lost the 3rd game cuz she didnt call a lift on the other team
OK! IM gonna stop talking about this now
So i get home.....do homework.....play the piano in extreme pain cuz my fucking thumb hurts like shit...and now im writing this
I feel like writing some sort of song....
I think i will...
Bye
Luv u
Hate centennial

[DATE:10.06.04] [TIME: 9:00 PM]
[MOOD: Ok]
[MUSIC: Fitch- What it is to Burn]
Wow i heavent heard that song in forever. I rally liek it =]
Neway
I got to school and went to the guidance counselor to try and sign up for the PSAT but she wasnt there and then after school she was but she didnt have change for my money and it kinda ticked me off cuz i wanted to buy snack after school and i didnt have nething to buy it with
My stupid finger hurt the whole fucking day cuz i hyperextended/sprained it during the volleyball game yesterday while i was trying to set a ball =/
Im happy to say all my serves got in tho!!! =D It was the first game i ever served/played back row/played both games
WE lost tho =( 2-0
Yeah
Ive also been really uncoordinated today
I keep bumping into people >< I think i hit liek....5 random ppl
And i almost tripped over my own feet twice
Anyway, after school me n britt called Daniel, our online friend from liek....forever ago and i got to hear his voice for the first time
=D he told me to call britt "Roger" lol and i still remember the first time he told me to use Febreeze on my dad when he pissed me off
But neway
Where was I?
Oh yeah volleyball practice
it was fun....i dont actually suck that bad =]
Then i had band and it was actually qutie boring
And now i just ifnished english hw and its almost 10 at night >< im sooo sleepy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ugh
btw i got a 51 out of 58 on the English test, therefore NOT failing it =P
And on the math test i didnt tell my mom about i got a 20 out of 24....and only missed 2 problems. Haha =D i guessed on all of them
Im so gifted =)
I have a spanish test tomorro tho ><
O wellz
now i have to go get the background music for my Talent show song
Btw did i mention i made the talent show? I MADE IT!! YAY!!!
EVen tho i have liek....no talent ><
okokok ima go now bai gnit
Luvz yaz

[DATE:10.04.04] [TIME: 9:22 PM]
[MOOD: Tired/Pissed]
[MUSIC: None]
Ugh i cant remember ne of my spelling word for english n im gonna fail tomorrows test....along with tomorrows social studies test
ok...today i did nothing out of the ordinary
I do have a new dilema thoB
i liek this one dude but i dunno him dat well and i wanna get to kno him but i dunno how to go about doing that
N hes really cute n hes nice n stuff....at least liek....he was nice when he was around me
IM asking Dj if he knows him....Dj knows everything
He's all-knowing
And hes pretty cute lol but we wont get into that cuz i don liek him no mo
Hmm...
He really IS cute =D
lol ima be thinking of him all nit
And when ill c hi at school ill prolly trip over my own feet and embarrass myself
And i also have a friend that kinda reminds me of gunter in some weird way...i mean....my friend's asian...and gunters...not
But somehow he reminds me of him
Hes an awesum skater =D
Skaters Rox my Sox
And now im gonna go byebye
So bai
Luvz yaz...some more than others =P
JK i luve u all equally
Sometimes =]

[DATE:10.03.04] [TIME: 9:09 PM]
[MOOD: Ok]
[MUSIC: umm...]
My sister stuck her long fingernailed finger down my nose when i was playing with her and now my nose is bleeding ><
WE also had a soccer game today and we tied 3 to 3!!!!!!! Thats the most goals weve ever scored!!! In the first half we were losing 2 to 0 and when Sam scored 2 goals and in the last minute i came on the field as a forward and scored 1 goal and it was a beautiful goal cuz the goalie ran out to get the ball and i ran to it and slided and kicked the ball in
But when i slid this other girl from the other team tried to egt the ball and stepped with her cleats on my arm and it hurts =(
BUT WE TIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And i luv my sister =]
And i have a whole crapload of HW that i didnt do
And this morning during sunday school i had to be a sunday school teacher for the preeschoolers and i spend half an hour trying to stop this 2 year old from poking his eyes out with scissors cuz he wouldnt let me help him
ALso yesterday we had a marhcing band competition and i got home at liek 1 cuz my dad was late picking me up >/
We go 2nd place......and there were only two bands competing =( Reservoir got 1st place cuz we had a .5 point penalty
We shoulda won =(
Im sad/angry
But ill get over it
And now im gonna go
Bai i luvs youz

[DATE:10.01.04] [TIME: 10:11 PM]
[MOOD: Sore]
[MUSIC: None]
Y is it all my entries are posted at some time that ends in "1"?
Ok neway
I just got home about 15 mins ago from the football game
we lost....like always
we havent won a game yet
I marched pretty well...i kinda went too far once and had to half-run back
I also had volleyball practice b4 that and i did really good =]
And i got my interm and i only have 1 B and its in english, the rest R A's.....low A's.....but still A's
And now ima go
Baibai